home--my whole life

this afternoon when i back home and saw my grandma in the graden and did some funny staff, actually i am really happy to see she is fine and enjoy her life. suddenly i know that this is what i should love my whole life. he or whatever any kinds of friends are less than her and my family...
i love my family my whole life.

friday and ending but still hope

if someone call friday is the end of one week, so that is to say i will get my answer but still i got nothing until now. but of course i still waiting for that, hope will have a wonderful weekend and may holiday, even though i konw that he is not here with me, he is in somewhere far away from me but if there is any hope in my heart i will keep it. definitelly i am the person who love more and i am willing to do that for him. if nothing else i will take care myself and running for my dream.

my pen my heart

whatever i've been through i cannot without a pen, i donot when but now my blog seems to be my everything and i need a pen to pick me up. i konw everyone can read it but i dont really care that. the only thing i care about is my heart, i will relax and feel comfortable after wirte something on whatever or wherever, that is enough for me. odd but me. sometimes i even cannot remember the most easy words but still the life rest i know i should wake up from the past and do my best to what i should do...because whether i will find my true love or not ....the love i should not lose in my whole life already here...my family...i willnot let them down... my pen my heart ..all to them

one week

i can not believe myself i will wait for one person for one week. and whether there is a answer or not. just wait here..but 2 days left and there is no any messages or emails...only wait here. what is wrong with me anyway... and can i call him as my boyfriend or not? god...i am crazy i know that. he did not say he love me or miss me and did not pick up my call...why i am still here and waiting for him for one unbelieveable answer or even there will be nothing else .... no hope ..nothing... but he didnot konw all i wanna do is find a way back into love...only this..nothing else..he didnot understand ..even myself donot know whether i can trust him or not..far away from me and without a word...just best friend? or after one week become to be my boyfriend? how fool i am..love such a guy and still love him even he just gone without a word ...perhaps i should leave and forget him...one week for me is long enough to love one person and as well is long enough to forget one. one week can hurt me but one month will kill me...whatever it will be..i know i will find my new life in uk..all my dream